Well as spontaneous as I get… We are going on a trip in a week. We are going to go see my siblings up north. I am excited and incredibly worried about leaving during a pandemic. Part of me is ready to go the other part is ready to chicken out.
I am also 3 days away from getting my tattoo! I am also excited and almost tempted to cancel it… but I won’t I already paid a deposit and I am ready to get some ink I’m just still scared to go anywhere and be near strangers. I know we will be the only ones in a sterile shop with masks on the whole time… but I am still nervous.
My city has been having huge spikes and so going out makes me anxious. We will be traveling to a much smaller city and that makes me feel a little better. We can get out of the heat and go for walks. We can go easily go to the mountains anytime we need to… It will be great… we can walk around the marina and have acres of land to play on. The hot days are barley 100 degrees and that gives us plenty of morning or evening time to play outside. It’s not about wanting to go somewhere that we can go around in and out of places. It’s to be able to get out of the heat and get outside. To be near my siblings and enjoy their company. To have my son and daughter not trapped in the heat box inside a city unable to go do or see anything. They will get a chance to just enjoy a bit of summer.
I’m not going to lie I’m worried about going to work but I am absolutely terrified for my kids to go to daycare. I honestly wish that the district would go to full time distance learning for the next semester. That way I could teach from home with the kids at home. Hubby would take a kid for me for several hours a few times a week. It looks like it is planned to be a combination of in person and online schooling.
Part of me feels like it will be just a matter of time before we get it even if we don’t go back I don’t know this is what I need to get a break from. Just go see my siblings out in the boonies and enjoy a little bit of summer.