So very many thoughts coursing through my brain today!
First off until I can talk to our dr. I have no idea what our next step is going to be… so all of this are just the many what if questions that are circling my brain!!!
Surrogacy:
- If we can have to do a surrogate it won’t be until the summer because my sisters schedule!
- I wonder if my sister would change her mind when she realizes how much is involved in the FET process…
- If our one and only embryo doesn’t work then we would have to do a whole knew process of IVF and that could be 3 or 4 years away before it would be possible!
- The legalities of medical responsibility would have to be all worked out before we could even start anything.
Adoption:
- It could be years before we could afford this, since the cost to a round of IVF via surrogacy through my sis and adoption are about the same financially.
- it could be years before we get chosen after we get to the financial aspect.
- What would we have to do to be qualified?
- Whats the pro’s and con’s of going through an agency compared to going through the state?
- Pro’s and con’s to open, semi open, and closed adoptions?
- Are there classes we have to take?
- Would we even be able to adopt before I’m done with college?
IVF:
- Will it be possible to continue on this path.
- Is my body even capable of doing this?
- If I’m capable of carrying a baby but the next cycle doesn’t work will it will be years before we could do it all again!
- How do I tuck away my fears and continue to believe in the process?
- How do I trust my body?
- How do I choose to put the money into my body and IVF or adoption?
- Going through all the stimming again sounds like hell right this minute!
See so many thoughts running through my head! But it’s okay because it means that there are options our journey to completing our family is not over, it’s just on pause until we know whats next!
Were still waiting on a call from the clinic. I have no idea when this week they will call, I’m just hoping it’s soon and it’s good news like you just need to take this extra pill or shot and you will have a healthy pregnancy. But until I get that call all these thoughts and questions are circling my brain!